song lyrics that got me by and through

Okay, so I promised more posts I plan to deliver but in the meantime I am going to post you these lyrics to a song that helped me a lot in my therapy. The Song is by Evanescence. I relate to it and connected with it on several levels. I have a copy of the lyrics on my bulletin board in my bedroom with some lyrics circle. And here we go...

"Lithium"

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Oh, but God, I want to let it go.

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.

I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.

Don't want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can't break free until I let it go.
Let me go.

Darling, I forgive you after all.
Anything is better than to be alone.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
Always find my place among the ashes.

I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels...
Lithium,...stay in love with my sorrow.
I'm gonna let it go.


the lyrics I have circled are 'I want to stay in love with my sorrow, Oh, but God, I want to let it go.' and the one that seemed to sum up my beginning feelings before my official diagnose which is 'I can't hold on to me, Wonder what's wrong with me.' and also 'Drown my will to fly.' These three pieces stuck out the most to me.

I think songs can be very helpful in therapy and I also write them. Maybe I'll get the courage to put some of my own lyrics up...sometime or another!

-Pamela